Musings

would you be happier, if were someone else all together?
would the sun shine brighter, if you took a different path?

~wondering whether who I am, sucks, again.

Why do I always do it the wrong way?

Been trying to catch myself each time Before I utter something silly
Or do something stupid...

Before it starts to irritate someone.
But I've overwhelmed by my tongue being faster than my brain.

Damn.
I promise to practice greater restraint.

I'm sorry.

得意良曲

曾经认为这首歌很得意。。。 如今还是`。。但有不同眼光:-)   恋爱症候群 作词：黄舒骏 作曲：黄舒骏    (989 words)  http://www.tudou.com/programs/view/1asB5UQN7V0/   

 关 於 恋 爱 症 候 群 的 发 生 原 因  

 至 今 仍 然 是 最 大 的 一 个 谜  

不 管 性 别 年 龄 职 业 体 重 学 历 长 像 和 血 型   

没 有 一 个 人 可 以 免 疫  

有 些 专 家 学 者 研 究 后 相 信   

恋 爱 是 内 分 泌 失 调 所 引 起  

却 有 别 人 认 为 恋 爱 属 於 滤 过 性 病 毒 

像 感 冒 无 药 可 救 但 会 自 动 痊 愈  

不 管 你 同 不 同 意   

至 古 到 今 许 多 例 子 证 明 

 恋 爱 不 但 是 一 种 病 态   

它 还 可 能 是 一 种 变 态  

 一 般 发 病 后 的 初 期 反 应   

会 开 始 改 变 一 些 生 活 习 性  

洗 澡 洗 得 特 别 乾 净   

刷 牙 刷 的 特 别 用 力   

半 夜 忽 然 爬 起 来 弹 钢 琴  

有 人 每 天 站 在 阳 台 对 路 人 傻 笑   

有 人 突 然 疯 疯 癫 癫 突 然 很 安 静  

有 人 一 脸 痴 呆 对 著 镜 子 咬 著 指 甲 打 喷 嚏   

有 人 对 小 狗 骂 三 字 经  女 人 突 然 改 变 发 型   

男 人 开 始 每 天 练 著 哑 铃  

食 欲 不 振 歇 斯 底 里 四 肢 萎 缩 神 经 过 敏 发 抖 抽 筋 都 出 现 在 这 时 期   

随 著 病 情 越 来 越 变 本 加 厉   

人 会 变 得 格 外 敏 感 勇 敢 和 恶 心  

写 的 说 的 唱 的 都 像 天 才 诗 人 一 般 才 华 洋 溢   

越 肉 麻 越 觉 得 有 趣  有 人 恋 爱 之 后 每 天 躲 在 厕 所 哭 泣   

有 人 开 记 者 会 宣 布 恋 爱 的 消 息  有 人 总 是 喜 欢 两 个 人 躲 在 黑 漆 漆 的 地 方   

像 做 了 不 可 告 人 的 事 情  每 天 忙 著 找 人 算 命   

挖 空 心 思 改 变 自 己 配 合 对 方 的 习 性  

把 每 天 都 当 作 纪 念 日   

把 自 己 当 作 纪 念 品   

每 天 漫 无 目 的 腻 在 一 起   

言 不 及 义 也 觉 得 好 有 趣  走 著 坐 著 躺 著 趴 著 都 形 影 不 离   

像 是 两 人 三 脚 又 像 连 体 婴  

心 里 想 的 只 有 爱 你 爱 你 爱 你 爱 你   

也 不 管 家 里 米 缸 有 没 有 米  

也 不 管 路 上 有 人 示 威 抗 议   

只 管 爱 你  心 里 想 的 只 有 爱 你 爱 你 爱 你 爱 你   

也 不 管 海 峡 两 岸 统 一 问 题  也 不 管 依 索 比 亚 多 少 难 民   

只 管 爱 你   

经 过 一 番 轰 轰 烈 烈 热 恋 时 期   

不 久 就 会 开 始 渐 渐 痊 愈  

两 人 开 始 互 相 厌 倦 互 相 攻 击 对 方 缺 点   

所 有 甜 蜜 都 随 风 而 去  

然 后 开 始 从 错 觉 然 误 解 中 清 醒  

 惊 讶 自 己 为 何 如 此 不 聪 明  

为 了 爱 情 不 顾 一 切 不 管 父 母 朋 友 姊 妹 兄 弟   

开 始 感 到 后 悔 不 已  

然 后 开 始 感 到 疲 惫 沈 闷 气 喘 心 悸 牙 痛 头 痛 梦 呓  

然 后 是 精 神 不 济 瞳 孔 放 大 脾 气 暴 躁 四 肢 麻 痹   

终 於 受 不 了 要 分 离   

虽 然 结 果 颇 令 人 伤 心   

了 解 之 后 也 没 什 麼 了 不 起  

爱 情 终 究 是 握 不 住 的 云   

只 是 我 想 要 告 诉 你 ：  

在 我 落 寞 的 岁 月 里   

你 的 温 柔 解 脱 我 的 孤 寂  

带 给 我 深 深 的 呼 吸   

轻 轻 颤 动 著 我 的 心 灵  

我 要 对 你 说 爱 你 爱 你 爱 你 爱 你  

不 管 是 黑 夜 或 是 黎 明  

不 管 是 梦 中 或 是 清 醒  

深 深 爱 你  

多 麼 幸 福  

让 我 遇 见 你

小心情

Little did I know
It would show

my vulnerabilities

my vanity

all out in the open
for all to see

I know who I am
more importantly

you know who I am

a little chip here

a crack over there

I'm not perfect

but I try to be

I know what I must work on

Happy that you held on

your faith in me oh so strong

it takes so little

to keep the grin

plastered on your face

it takes so little
to stem the flow
of the tears, you show

what we share

what we care

oh that's so rare

we shall work hand in hand

keep the fire burnin

keep our fingers crossed

and keep the faith going

that we're meant for each other

that we'll work together

hopefully, it'll last forever.

dedicated to "morepork", my love.

We share~

a love for cuteness

we laugh at the smallest thing

(and we hug at every available occasion!;p)

a sense of easy contentment

understand the need for frugality

a love for the written word

art, though in different forms

passion in the things we believe in

trust in each other

comprehend the importance of communication and discussion

realize that there is so much we don't know, and be willing to learn

and more importantly, we support the other in all things we don't (currently) share.

Ruru~ I love you!

Ode

As the rains fall....
the tears follow...

we bid our last goodbyes,

as the children cry,

although mum says

"he's gone to a better place"

they can't help themselves out of the daze

our life's work

is judged by our ways

how you're sent off will depend,

who's hand you held
and who's live's you've touched

be it so small

the footprint says it all
everyone's not an island

lives are helplessly linked

even when a tiny pebble comes along

the ripples spread far and wide

may you rest well

may you have joy

may your spirit and wisdom

be carried on....

Dedicated to my Neighbour, Uncle Goh- who passed away This wednesday, 26th January, 2011

Song About me Hehe

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OBzA76QGgz8

Float like a butterfly, Run like a lizard; on water!

Have you heard of Jesus Lizards or Basilisk Lizards?

The former got their name from being able to split the streams they run in into two.. heh, Just kidding.

It comes from their ability to run across water for 4-5 metres at a time, at their hindlegs!

why my sudden interest in these lizards?

Because right now I may be taking care of one!

This little guy, I don't his common name, nor his species but what I can describe about him, is this.





He measures Around 8.5cm from head to tail, at the moment,
with the head and body taking up 3.0 cm.. the rest of him all tail!
He's got a splayed hind foot, with the fourth toe the longest,
and he's got eye marking on the back of his head, something reminiscent of Cobras.



I'm guessing what he will grow up to be

1)- A Chameleon,
2)- An Iguana
3)- A running lizard
4)- A house lizard. LOL

And his long tail piqued my interest.

Here's what I found.

Bipedal Lizards at blistering speed
explains via freeze frame as well as videos (lab) how lizards run faster bipedally.

Here's a National Geographic Video, of a Young Basilisk Lizard runs on Water

And here: Is the explanation of how it freakin does it!

And I'd appreciate any guesses to what kinda Dinosaur or Dragon he is! :-)::-)

Need Help With Species Identification

Calling out to Any backyard Naturalist that happen to pass by:
Need your help with putting a name to the subjects of my photographs!

Location: FRIM Outpost in Teluk Intan/ Bidor and Teluk Intan itself

More photos of this series can be seen HERE

Preview - NZ diaries

1) Wanna go back to the days where manual labour was the order of the day and my gray matter can rest (its cerebellum) on its laurels.

2) To get attuned to my instincts, to hone my 6th sense, to feel the vibe of the earth, to get in touch with Gaia! To trust my gut feeling and go with the flow. and be steadfast with what happens next, no complaints! Learn to make a decision and bear the consequences!

3) What will it b like to be in the company of someone for 2 whole months! despite her being the love of my life; I think it'll take some getting used to, and wonder whether will we ever get tired of each other? hmmmm.... Preview of future houseman life....?

4) Learn to put Dale CArnegie to the fore. By going to someplace new, where everyone is a stranger, where no one has preconceived notions about me, I'm free to tweak my personality and demeanour. GRanted, I've always been myself, And now I'll try NOT to be myself, and see how that works for me, in terms of building relationships. Maybe the real me has been a Jackass all this while. LOL

i wanna learn to be a great storyteller! It will help in catching people's attention for my environmental work!

5)I'll probably be stuck in my profession for at least a good 20 years (after which I'll aim for retirement one way or another. Medicine will be on the side. Like Potato chips on the side of Nando's Chicken, ru hui's favourtie dish. (Oh shit. In Leru's case, The chips are the main course, the chicken? probably she thinks of it as coleslaw. LOL). So, Before I get stuck in Mud for the next 2 decades, I'll go for fresh stuff and new experiences... and build life stories and anecdotes for my children.

6) maybe I can join an environmental network in New Zealand. And ruru can join the knitting and sketching society! That way when we get too bored with each other, we'd have other people to complain about each other. HEH!

7) LEAP of FAITH. BUNGEEEEEEEEE.
SKydiving! Things to do! Play with kiwi bird! and compare size. ^.^